Archive for July 13th, 2010
Where is your supposedly God?
“I was thinking that perhaps this thing called God doesn’t exist.
Because He cannot save any one of us.
No matter how we pray He doesn’t mend our wounds.
Not matter how we plead, He doesn’t strike down our enemies.
There hasn’t even been an instance where he has cured our sick.
Powerless, we can only wait to be tossed onto the dirt of a foreign land.
He doesn’t have a thread of spiritual presence. If only there were a shadow, a whisper. But I haven’t felt Him once.”“So, what is it that you want now?”
“Perhaps, a demon?”
When I read this, it felt like my thoughts had been summed up by this simple piece of text. I still wonder, why do people believe something that haven’t proven itself to be there?
Maah.. I shouldn’t really bother. I react when someone is trying to convert me. If they leave me alone, I will do the same to them.
Mom and her bf is away on vacation. Leaving me all to my pleasure. I wished I could have some fun but it’s the week where every one except me goes to vacation. Alana though, got introduced to a game by me. So I don’t think I’ll be seeing her for a few days…
I’ve been cooking for myself. So don’t think I’ll starve just because I’m lazy =_= I got mail from Sherri, which always makes me incredibly happy.
Internet is slow as usual, no fun there. I’ve decided to stop drinking alcohol. Expensive, hard to get, no fun – sugar rocks.
Not much of an update eh? I think the girl from Västerås, has moved to Holland =/ Without saying anything to me xD Oh well, I knew we were just two people having some “anime-expression-fun”.
I’ll be going to school too soon. I’m looking forward to leave everything behind. Lucky, the things I’m leaving is not worth coming back for and there’s nothing to solve either.
I hope I can start over. Because I really need to do that. I think I’ll change my phone number again. Yep, I’ll do that after I’ve moved and gotten myself a new phone =)
A lot of depressing shit I’m saying? This is nothing compared to how I feel. I’m pretty confident in what my instincts tells me to do.